June Challenge #1 Voice/Chatter Bubble Optimism

Self talk... you know the voices IN your head.  The ones that either lift you up or slam you down.  We all have an inner voice.  Mine talks ALL the time.  I think it's a reflection of my personality, you think?? I'm still learning how to shut her up sometime.  During the day, the voice reminds me of things to do, goals to accomplish, gives me "Atta Girls" and gives me a pep talk to get thru situations.  That voice is MINE.

At night my voice usually sleeps.  Unfortunately as I lie there..others awaken.  They have names; Self Doubt, Negativity, Suspicion, Fear..to name a few.  They bring up past experiences where I stumbled, releiving painful parts of my life.  Other voices talk about my image and body.  When life is out of control they take the form of mini-movies of me flying out of control, clinging to shreds of reality.  Or running in circles trying to find solutions for problems in the daytime.   Occasional night or day, the voice is my mothers.   I think ALL us has our mother's or father's voice in our head.  I'm not saying our mothers or fathers are bad.  It's just they are such a ingrained part of us, we can't help it when their voice speaks..
This challenge is giving a great jumping point to explore these voices and how they affect my optimism.  Because I'll admit these voices can be very pessimistic, but then when Freud looks at me and my family well... We are very sarcastic, cynical and at times negative.  (Again not a blame game. just stating a fact)  But when do I shake those negative influences and adopt my own?  So I'll be exploring this venue in my journal and maybe quiet some of those voices.  Except the one that tells me where the car keys are and the grocery list running in the back of my head.....